Why does my father brag that it only took a few tries to knock up my mom with me, when, according to my mom, I was a planned (on her part alone) accident?
The lie that my father didn’t want me because he knew he couldn’t be around as much as he wanted, but my mom got pregnant anyway?
Or…
The lie that my mom manipulated my father into getting pregnant, when they’d actually tried for me?
If I can’t know how I got here, what luck am I supposed to have knowing why I want to stay here?
I hope you want to stay here to give yourself a better life than you’ve had. You deserve that, no matter what happens and no matter what you think when you’re not on your own side. You deserve a good, happy life.
Wow. Wow. I’m so sorry that you’re struggling. Being manipulated by a parent is something incredibly hard to overcome. Sending you my very best.