We have been trying to have a baby for years to no avail. I will spare you the details, but I was approached by a potential birth mother who is a friend. She is pregnant, doesn’t want the baby, was going to have an abortion and decided she didn’t know if she could go through with it. She asked if we might be interested in private adoption. YES, oh YES, it would be a dream come true.
I did it. I got my hopes up against all logic and warning from everyone.
I got a text today that says she is not going through with the pregnancy. I am so sad right now. I am heartbroken at the needless loss of a life that could be my baby.
Where do I go from here?
I had such a tight lid on this I never let myself feel this hope or dream.
I let the lid off and now I am devastated.
December 23, 2010 at 9:58 am
I’m so sorry. I have no words, just an ear to listen and a shoulder to lean on.
aunt becky says:
December 23, 2010 at 11:26 am
Sending you much love. I’m so very sorry. I cannot imagine the heartbreak you must be going through right now. xo
Nancy P says:
December 23, 2010 at 11:40 am
I am so very sorry. I can’t imagine the let down. Hugs to you.
Heather @ nobody-but-yourself says:
December 23, 2010 at 11:44 am
I have been where you are and it is absolute heartbreak. I am so, so sorry for what you are going through. I wish you comfort and healing and strength to continue on in your journey to parenthood. (((HUGS)))
Anna Marie says:
December 23, 2010 at 12:06 pm
I am so, so sorry. My heart breaks for you.
December 23, 2010 at 7:09 pm
i have also been where you are….i know the level of heartbreak and disappointment, and my heart is aching for you.
i also know the joy of having an 18 year old adoptive son (adopted at birth) after the pain of the first failed adoption. it will happen.
all i can send are cyber-hugs..but i’m sending lots.