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Scared, Part 2

I am scared of everything. I said it before.

I’m scared of the normal stuff, like something happening to my family. I’m scared of the irrational stuff, like circular stairs. I’m scared of the absurd like “walking out of this room and never feeling the same way again.” (Doesn’t everyone misquote Dirty Dancing?)

I’m scared I turned down the only job offer I may get because just going on the interview made me feel like a giant douchebag. I’m scared I’m going to lose my house.  I’m scared my health insurance isn’t going to cover me.

I’m scared of living because of everything.  I’m not contemplating suicide. That goes back to the fear of something happening or my family. I couldn’t do that to them.   I just hate feeling like a loser.