Aunt Becky challenged me to write an “I Will” post… Here’s my crack at it:
This is a year of major changes for me. The title is paraphrased from a book by one of my favorite authors, Maeve Binchy, who died a few years ago. One of the lessons I’ve taken from her books is that kindness matters and change is sometimes incremental, but the opportunities to change abound.
First the Goals:
- Meet Baby (due end of June)
- Complete Probation (October, possibly sooner)
- Complete the 12 steps (currently on Step 4, which sucks, but I am finding valuable)
- Start School (Sign Language Interpreting Program)
- Graduate Treatment (possibly this month?)
- Move into my own apartment (hopefully by March)
- Stay sober (110 days and counting)
- Eat regularly
- Practice healthy boundaries – especially removing unhealthy and negative people from my life and saying “no” to things that jeopardize my values/goals/self
- Re-engage with Church
- Practice gratitude
- Learn to manage anger without becoming self-destructive
- Stay Present and Enjoy the Journey
- Practice Forgiveness – especially of myself
- Give back
- Never Stop Learning
- Make good choices (especially financial ones)
- Daily Maintenance (this is a concept from NA – aka The Four Simple Things: 1. pray honesty, out loud; 2. talk to another addict, preferably one sponsor or someone else with more clean time, honestly; 3. read literature daily; and 4. do something nice for someone else).
But the Over-Riding Theme?
I Will Become a Better Version Of Myself
Not too tall an order right??? LOL
You are kicking butt and taking names! I am so proud of you and how far you’ve come and I’m so happy to see you thriving even in the face of difficult challenges. I believe in you and cannot wait to see how you grow!!
I love this, and you! I love your optimism and resolve, two things we all need more of when we decide to change the way we live our lives.
Please go easy on yourself. Allow yourself time and space to get to the places you want to be. And always remember that we’re here to show you love and give massive numbers of hugs while you’re on your way to the better version of an already phenomenal you. xoxo
Congrats on your sobriety! You’ve got this.
Kate, your persistence and positive attitude is amazing. Congrats on 110 days! I just made it to six years and it is so worth it. Have patience with yourself. You are a gift to other people and don’t forget it. ❤️