She was a freaking PRO at latching-on, and breastfeeding went spectacularly. My recently-born third child is also proving himself to be quite the little breastfeeding champ.
My second child? Not so much. He couldn’t get the hang of latching-on, even with special equipment, like those freaky-looking nipple shields.
The stress of a cross-country move three weeks postpartum, moving in with my in-laws, while my husband had to take an extended job out-of-state (he spent eight months of my son’s first year out-of-state), my supply of breastmilk steadily decreased.
I was too poor to get a decent breast pump, we were in-between insurance, which meant that pumping my breasts to keep up my breastmilk supply was not an option.
Multiple lactation consultants and doctors were seen – no success. We began supplementing with formula, and while he was still a colicky baby, he was a little happier as he wasn’t hungry anymore.
I went on medication for postpartum depression when he was a few months old. That officially brought an end to our breastfeeding journey.
I spent several years working through the guilt of being unable to continue with breastfeeding. Every asthma attack he had triggered that guilt. When he developed speech problems, I worried that his difficulty speaking was related to not bonding through breastfeeding, or because I had postpartum depression.
Fast-forward to this past February as my four-year old climbed into the dentist’s chair for his first visit to the dentist.
As she was checking out his teeth, the dentist asked, “Does he ever have trouble with his speech?”
Startled, I told her, “Not really. He had a little trouble when he first started, but his last evaluation was good.”
While poking around in his mouth, she said, “Oh, good. I see that he’s tongue-tied. Not badly, borderline even, but sometimes makes it hard for children to learn to speak.”
I’m not sure what I said in return, because my mind was already jumping – tongue-tied. His frenulum is short, so his tongue’s movement is restricted. Not only can it cause problems with speech, having a tongue-tie can make breastfeeding and latching on difficult.
And just like that, all those feelings of guilt rushed back.
All the doctors and consultants that we had seen – not one had caught that he’d been tongue-tied. A tongue-tie is easily correctable. The frenulum is clipped and, tada, the tongue can move more freely.
Logically, I know that we’d still have had other hurdles to overcome to be able to breastfeed successfully. I know that he’s a smart, (more-or-less) healthy little boy, who wasn’t negatively impacted by being formula fed. I know that, given all the circumstances, formula was the best option for ALL of us. I know that he and I are no less bonded together because his food came from a silicone nipple instead of my own.
But my heart is less practical.
My heart is grieving that loss; that missed opportunity all over again.
First off, let me explain that I have four amazing daughters, and I’m out the other side of postpartum psychosis – I hope that my words will help others to feel less alone. The power of words can be magical.
While I was fine mentally after my first daughter was born, I was faring poorly after giving birth to my second; I’d had a traumatic birth experience coupled with the loss of my relationship with my partner. My ex and I separated, so I blamed the loss of my relationship for my mental health issues. After I went to the doctor, I was given antidepressants, which I thought would help, but they only made me feel seasick, nauseous, and I couldn’t focus on anything.
With side effects like that, I stopped taking the antidepressants; I didn’t detox or stop taking them correctly, but still I felt like a million dollars and I felt a huge relief once I moved away from ex. Now, I adored my girls but I had bonding issues with my second, which is always painfully hard.
Three years later and I met my current husband. I’d never felt so content and adored. I fell pregnant with my third daughter, having once vowed I would never have any more kids – but I didn’t feel right denying my husband the joys of children – I gave him the gift of parenthood! I’d had a perfect pregnancy and labour, and the most beautiful little bundle was born. Four months later, we got married and my baby started to get ill – like really ill – and ended up tube fed in hospital for a week.
I’d stopped breastfeeding her during that week, and guess what?! I’d fallen pregnant with a fourth daughter, and this time my pregnancy was, at best, surreal, and, at worst, heartbreaking to relive. I became psychotic, erratic, forgetful, resentful, and fell completely off the rails.
One day, we were driving to collect my eldest daughters from their dad – 100 miles away – and I tried to stop our car in the middle of the motorway. My husband first thought I was joking but I wasn’t. I’d literally lost the plot. I was screaming and trying to change the gears on the car. I was trying to get out of the car while it was moving. Within a minute, my husband was crying, begging me to calm down.
In the UK it’s illegal to pull over on a motorway, but we got stuck in traffic and our eight-month old baby was screaming from the back of the car. I was 3 1/2 months pregnant and screaming that I was going to jump off a bridge. I was so desperate to get out the car. We couldn’t go anywhere, we were stuck in traffic with me inconsolable. My husband managed to pacify me.
At that point I should have sought help, I know that now, but I continued on with my life because I didn’t want to be prescribed additional shitty antidepressants. I soldiered on, all the while making everyone else around me miserable, scared, and resentful of me and my outbursts. I was vile, but I couldn’t see it or understand why I felt this way.
One morning, my husband went to get his hair cut at the barber and got caught in traffic – no big deal. When he came home, I started launching potatoes at his head – hot jacket potatoes straight from the oven, because I’d thought that if he didn’t have the manners to eat his dinner with his family, he could wear it! I was launching potatoes at his head while he was ducking, trying to reassure and cuddle me. Suddenly, I was convinced he was seeing someone else.
I used to go out at 2:00 AM when I couldn’t sleep and drive to the supermarket to do my weekly shop, just so I could drive past the cliff edge and dream of driving off of it. I was volatile and suicidal.
I adored my daughters and husband, but I genuinely believed everyone would be better off without my potato-throwing, car-stopping self in their lives. And quite frankly – at that time – they probably would have been. In the end, my husband rang my family, crying on the phone, begging them to intervene as he was at breaking point himself.
My mum drove me to A and E at 4:00 AM to see the emergency mental health team. It took five hours of me sitting, heavily pregnant, in a waiting room with heroin addicts fighting each other, waiting for their psych consultations before I was seen. I totally broke down. I was exhausted and scared and so, so confused. The mental health treatment team wanted to give me a c-section and sedate me, but it made me more irrational. I promised to stay with my family if I didn’t have to take any antidepressants, as all I could think was whatever I take, the baby takes.
They agreed with my plan, as long as I had a crisis meeting with my whole family and had someone with me at all times. By then, I had eight weeks to go. I was still an emotional train wreck but somehow I got through it. I gave birth to the most stunning little baby girl whom I bonded with immediately, thankfully. The mental health team believed that my symptoms were all related to hormones, as there was such a small age gap between babies and from the moment she was born I was fine. Since then, I have been mentally better.
Now, I have a completely different outlook on life.
At my most significant appointment, when I really was on the brink, the most wonderful psych doc told me this: “Suicide transfers your pain and torment to the ones you leave behind.” I truly believe those words are the reason I didn’t drive off of the cliff. I couldn’t leave my girls and husband.
I now live a normal life with my husband and four girls, and it feels like a lifetime ago. I talk about it a lot with friends and with strangers (and anyone who will listen) because I’m not ashamed of having had postpartum psychosis.
I’m simply proud to be out the other side and when people say they envy my beautiful family and relationship with my husband, I tell them the reality, and how much it took to get to where we are.
Then I tell them I have the best potato throw they will ever see!
Postpartum Psychosis (PP) is a severe, yet treatable, form of postpartum mental illness that occurs to some women after they’ve had a baby. It can happen to women without previous experience of mental illness, and usually begins in the first few days to weeks after childbirth. About half of women who experience it have no risk factors; but women with a prior history of mental illness, like bipolar disorder, a history of prior episodes of postpartum psychosis, or a family history are at a higher risk. Postpartum psychosis is different from postpartum depression and the Baby Blues Baby blues is common 2-3 days after childbirth but should pass. In some cases, the depressed mood lingers for more than 2 weeks and months after the labor, when some women receive a diagnosis of postpartum depression.
Postpartum Psychosis is a rare mental illness, compared to the rates of postpartum depression or postpartum anxiety. It occurs in approximately 1 to 2 out of every 1,000 deliveries, or approximately .1 -.2% of births. The onset is usually sudden, most often within the first two weeks postpartum, Unlike the Baby Blues symptoms, postpartum psychosis is treated as a medical emergency and requires urgent treatment. Most women get committed to a mental hospital, residing either in Mother and Baby units, at the general psychiatric ward, or in postpartum depression treatment centers.
Postpartum psychosis can worsen extremely quickly and should always be treated as a medical emergency. Most women need to be treated with medication and admitted to hospital for emergent care to treat the woman for the symptoms of this frightening mental illness.
Of the women who develop a postpartum psychosis, research has suggested that there is approximately a 5% suicide rate and a 4% infanticide rate associated with the illness. This is because the woman experiencing psychosis is experiencing a break from reality. In her psychotic state, the delusions and beliefs make sense to her; they feel very real to her and are often religious. Immediate treatment for a woman going through psychosis is imperative.
It is also important to remember that many survivors of postpartum psychosis never experience delusions that give violent commands. Delusions can take many forms, and not all of them are destructive. Most women who experience postpartum psychosis do not harm themselves or anyone else. However, there is always the risk of danger because psychosis includes delusional thinking and irrational judgment, and this is illness must be quickly assessed, treated, and carefully monitored by a trained mental healthcare team.
Postpartum psychosis is temporary and treatable with professional help, but it is an emergency and it is essential that you receive immediate help. If you feel you or someone you know may be suffering from this illness, know that it is not your fault and you are not to blame. Call your doctor or an emergency crisis hotline right away so that you can get the help you need.
Fortunately, with the right treatment, women with PP can and do make a full recovery. Recovery takes time and the journey may be tough. The illness can be frightening and shocking for both the woman experiencing it and her partner. Women do return to their normal selves, and are able to regain the mothering role they expected. There is no evidence that the baby’s long term development is affected by Postpartum Psychosis.
Postpartum mood disorders can include severe depression (sometimes mixed with anxiety), as well as other seriously disabling problems labeled with terms such as anxiety/ \panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and, very rarely, psychosis. Postpartum depression is by far the most common of postpartum mood disorders, affecting about one in seven new mothers. It can start anytime in the first year after giving birth. Symptoms of postpartum depression can include hopelessness, suicidal thoughts, sleep and eating problems, inability to feel good or be comforted, and withdrawing into oneself. A woman experiencing postpartum depression may have a hard time caring for her baby or meeting the other demands of daily life.
Besides postpartum depression, women sometimes experience other postpartum mood disorders. Feelings of intense anxiety, fear, or panic, along with rapid breathing, an accelerated heart rate, hot or cold flashes, chest pain, and shaking or dizziness are symptoms of an anxiety/panic disorder. Recurrent frightening thoughts, including obsessing over the baby’s health or acting out repetitive behaviors such as compulsive hand washing, are symptoms of an obsessive-compulsive disorder. A combination of depression with anxiety/panic disorder or obsessive-compulsive disorder is also possible.
Postpartum Psychosis is the label used by most professionals for an episode of mania or psychosis that occurs soon after childbirth. However, other names can be used, including: Puerperal Psychosis; Postnatal Psychosis; Mania or Bipolar Disorder triggered by childbirth (this doesn’t necessarily mean that your partner will develop ongoing Bipolar Disorder); Schizoaffective Disorder with onset following childbirth (this doesn’t necessarily mean that you will develop ongoing Schizoaffective Disorder); Postnatal Depression with psychotic features.
While there appears to be a strong link between postpartum psychosis and bipolar disorder, it’s estimated that about half of women who present with postpartum psychosis have no psychiatric history prior to delivery, making it difficult to identify women who are at greatest risk for this illnessThere are many other mental health conditions that occur following childbirth, including Postpartum Depression, Postpartum Anxiety, and Postpartum Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (P-OCD). It is important that these conditions are not grouped under the term Postpartum Depression. PPD is much more common than PP, but tends to require different treatments and has different causes and outcomes.
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What Are The Causes Risk Factors For Postpartum Psychosis?
If you’re at high risk of developing postpartum psychosis, you should have specialist care during pregnancy, though about half of women who experience postpartum psychosis have no risk factors. While research into Postpartum Psychosis is ongoing, we still have much to learn about this serious mental illness. What is currently known about Postpartum Psychosis is this:
Lower birth weight increases the risk of postpartum psychosis, whereas gestational diabetes and birth weight were associated with a reduced risk of first-onset psychoses during the postpartum period.
Older mothers (over 35 years) are about 2.4 times as likely to experience postpartum psychosis than younger mothers (under 19 years).
PP is not your fault. It is not caused by anything you or your partner have thought or done.
Relationship problems, family, money troubles, or an unwanted baby do not cause PP.
The dramatic changes in hormone levels following birth are thought to trigger PP, but studies have not yet identified how these factors are involved.
For a woman with no history of mental illness who has a close relative (a mother or sister) who had postpartum psychosis, the risk is about 3%
The first month after delivery is the time of greatest risk for psychotic illness.
Genetic factors are thought to play a role. Women are more likely to have PP if a close relative has had PP. There may be a genetic component; while mutations in chromosome 16 and in specific genes involved in serotoninergic, hormonal, and inflammatory pathways have been identified, none had been confirmed as of 2019
Women with a history of Bipolar Disorder or schizophrenia are at very high risk of PP.
Disrupted sleep patterns may cause PP for some
Women who already have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder, schizophrenia, or another psychotic illness are considered to be at a higher risk for developing postpartum psychosis.
Women with a history of bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, prior episode of postpartum psychosis, or a family history of postpartum psychosis are at high risk; about 25-50% of women in this group will have postpartum psychosis.
After one episode of postpartum psychosis, the risk for additional episodes of postpartum psychosis increases to 30-50%.
There is mixed evidence about whether the type of delivery or a traumatic delivery plays a role. It is possible that there are overlaps with physical illnesses that occur during childbirth, such as pre-eclampsia and infection..
What Are The Symptoms of Postpartum Psychosis?
Symptoms of postpartum psychosis usually start suddenly within the first two weeks after giving birth. Rarely, they can develop several weeks after the baby is born. For some women, Postpartum Psychosis may develop very quickly and become obvious that something is wrong. For other people, symptoms may emerge more gradually. This can be difficult to determine if the symptoms are part of the natural childbirth process, or if it’s an actual emergency. When in doubt, call for help.
The symptoms vary and can change quickly. The most severe symptoms last from 2 to 12 weeks, and recovery usually takes 6 months to a year.
Postpartum Psychosis is a medical emergency and must be treated immediately.
Women with Postpartum Psychosis experience some or all of the following symptoms:
Excited, elated, or feeling “high”
Depressed, anxious, or confused.
Excessively irritable or changeable in mood (also called mood lability)
Postpartum Psychosis must also include one or more of the following:
Strange beliefs that could not be true (delusions).
Hearing, seeing, feeling or smelling things that are not there (hallucinations).
High mood with loss of touch with reality(mania).
These are also common symptoms:
Being more talkative, sociable, on the phone an excessive amount.
Having a very busy mind or racing thoughts.
Feeling very energetic and like Super Mom
Agitated and restless.
Having trouble sleeping, or not feeling the need to sleep.
Behaving in a way that is out of character or out of control.
Feeling paranoid or suspicious of people’s motives.
Feeling that things are connected in special ways or that stories on the TV or radio have special personal meaning.
Feeling that the baby is connected to God or the Devil in some way.
The majority of postpartum survivors rarely or never experience violent tendencies and delusions. The vast majority of women who survive postpartum psychosis won’t harm themselves or the baby. However, staying quiet about the debilitating condition, the loneliness deprives both mother and child of bonding and forming the strong connection that would otherwise occur.
Suicide and infanticide, the most devastating outcomes of severe postpartum psychosis, occur in between 4 and 5% of women afflicted with the illness. Tragic outcomes happen when the symptoms in a mother worsen to the point of detaching from reality. Mothers become deeply affected by irrational, paranoid ideas that make sense to them.
Most often, infanticide takes place when the mother believes that the child is in danger, often from supernatural forces, so ending the baby’s life looks like the only remaining option. Tragic outcomes can only be avoided through urgent medical treatment.
How is Postpartum Psychosis Diagnosed?
Diagnosis of postpartum psychosis always requires hospitalization, where treatment is antipsychotic medication, mood stabilizers, and, in cases of strong risk for suicide, electroconvulsive therapy. Women who have been hospitalized for a psychiatric condition immediately after delivery are at a much higher risk of suicide during the first year after delivery.
The rapid and accurate diagnosis of postpartum psychosis is essential to expedite appropriate treatment and to allow for quick, full recovery, prevention of future episodes, and reduction of risk to the mother and her children and family.
How Is Postpartum Psychosis Treated?
Postpartum Psychosis is a psychiatric EMERGENCY and must be treated immediately.
Call 911 or your doctor.
Treatment of Postpartum Psychosis has no official guidelines. Once tests are administered and all the proper medical causes have been excluded from the diagnosis then the proper treatment is given based on the symptoms. Before the mother is released from the hospital, the team that administered treatment will work with the mother and her family to create a discharge plan that will strengthen her support, along with close follow-up, and prevent stressors that will risk the mother relapsing. Also, for future pregnancies, the mother’s primary care provider is advised to work jointly with other specialists on her care team giving her care in thought of anti-manic prophylaxis during pregnancy or after childbirth.
The mother may not recognize that she has anything wrong with her, so it may be up to the family to insist upon proper psychiatric care. At no time should the mother be left alone with the child until it is determined that the mother is being properly treated and the mother and child are both safe. It is vital that there be a supportive network of family and friends to care for both the mother and the baby.
The mother should be thoroughly evaluated by a doctor both during the episode and for some time afterwards. Symptoms may reappear within a year or two postpartum. Hospitalization is required in order for the mother’s treatment, particularly any medication regimens, to be properly administered and monitored. Women do return to their normal selves, and are able to regain the mothering role they expected. There is no evidence that the baby’s long term development is affected by Postpartum Psychosis.
Note: It is not uncommon for people to think the term postpartum schizophrenia is interchangeable with the diagnosis of postpartum psychosis. Postpartum schizophrenia is not a real diagnosis. Schizophrenia itself is a different diagnosis than psychosis. The disease of schizophrenia is treatable, but not curable. Postpartum psychosis, on the other hand, is both treatable and curable.
Admission To The Hospital:
As Postpartum Psychosis is an actual emergency, the very best and safest place for someone who has PP is in the hospital, which can cause major feelings within the family. Often, people don’t want to go or stay in the hospital for treatment, but as PP can lead to murder, suicide, and infanticide, ensuring your safety is the most important goal. In the hospital, you will be treated using a variety of different medications, other therapies, and therapy.
If you’re the partner of someone who has postpartum psychosis, it’s very likely that you may have to involuntarily to commit your loved one – for the safety of all involved. The length of time for hospital admission is highly individual. An average stay for PP is around 8 –12 weeks, but some women are admitted for only 2 weeks and some for much longer
Partners say that seeking treatment can bring about a vast array of difficult emotions – feelings of disloyalty, guilt, relief, helplessness, stress and frustration. The health system can be hard to navigate, and a great deal of tenacity is sometimes needed.
Before you is discharged from the hospital, you and your partner should ask for help in making a plan of action with your treatment team in case she gets ill again. The plan should include:
Triggers that may make you more vulnerable to high or low moods, such as stress.
Early warning signs to look out for, such as sleeplessness.
Which treatments or medications, and what doses, have worked well in the past.
Any medications you’d like to avoid.
Where you would like to be treated if you were to go back into a hospital.
The phone numbers of any health professionals and services you’ll need.
Activities you find helpful to your recovery.
Medication For Postpartum Psychosis:
You may only be in hospital for a short time, but it’s likely that you’ll probably need to take medication for a longer period after being discharged from hospital.
Different medications and dosages work for different people and it’s hard to find the right balance of psychiatric medications, so you may have to change medications and treatment at any time. Many medications used to treat Postpartum Psychosis have some side effects, so be sure to continue to chat with your treatment team about your treatment, including any side effects you are experiencing. Dosage can be changed or taken at different times of the day depending upon the side effects.
Many medications for postpartum psychosis can take 3 – 4 weeks to have an effect, which can cause major anger and frustration for all involved. Your doctors will be keeping an eye on how you and may change medication as needed. Be sure to ask the doctors and nurses any questions you have about your medications.
It’s very likely that your treatment team will use some of the medications listed below. It’s important to note that some of the medications for PP may have some unpleasant side effects for some, people, particularly when just starting to take them. Make certain to report any and all side effects to your treatment plan.
Antidepressants are used to help improve low mood and are often used alongside a mood stabilizer.
Antipsychotics are used to help treat psychotic symptoms such as unusual beliefs (delusions) and seeing or hearing things that are not there (hallucinations). They can also help to reduce anxiety and high mood (mania). At higher doses, many antipsychotics can cause you to feel sleepy and unmotivated, but remember that you may need these higher doses to fully recover.
Benzodiazepines may be used to help to reduce agitation and anxiety.
Mood stabilizers may be used to treat high mood (mania), low mood (depression) and dramatic changes in mood.
Sleeping medications can be used in the short term to help regain normal sleeping patterns.
ECT (Electroconvulsive therapy) In some cases, severe symptoms of Postpartum Psychosis persist even when you’ve been taking medication for quite awhile.If this is the case, or if the illness is particularly severe, the psychiatrist treating your partner may recommend that you consider ECT. ECT can be an effective treatment for PP.
Other types of therapies may also be used to help you, including psychological therapy. As you move forward with your recovery, you will receive a referral to a therapist for therapy.
Most women who have recovered say that taking medication was vital to their recovery as medications help bring the symptoms of psychosis under control and to stabilize your mood.You may feel, however, that medication only helps with half the problem – symptoms but not self confidence. It is important to use more active recovery methods alongside medication to help with self confidence and the social side of recovery.
The great majority of women with postpartum psychosis make a full recovery as long as they receive the right treatment.
The Aftermath of Postpartum Psychosis:
You and your family should have emergency contact numbers for local crisis services, if you, your partner, or family think you are becoming unwell. If you think you are becoming unwell again, don’t wait to seek help.
Postpartum psychosis can go undetected and pass spontaneously in many women. Considering the risks, the best way to help yourself is to surround yourself with support. Being open and honest about your feelings, thoughts and fears will help your family and friends understand your condition better.
In the early days after being diagnosed and/or receiving treatment in hospital you may feel a sense of confusion about the events of your baby’s birth and your illness. Many women find it hard to remember the exact sequence of events. Some of the following ideas may help you to piece together what happened:
Ask your treatment for a summary of events and your treatment.
Talk to your partner or family about what happened – but some people find this very hard and need time to recover first.
Write your story as you can remember it.
Use photos or memories to put together a timeline of events. This can help you look back on your baby’s first days even though they weren’t how you expected them to be.
Read other women’s stories Many women behave in ways that are really out of character during an episode of Postpartum Psychosis. It may help just to know that these experiences are usual symptoms of the illness.
These ideas may help you learn to cope with what has happened:
You may feel let down, angry, and/or unhappy about the way treatment was started, especially if you had to go to hospital under an involuntary admission.Remind yourself that these were symptoms of the illness and not a permanent change in you.
It is very common during PP to become angry, excitable, use inappropriate language, be overfamiliar with strangers, or believe you have special insight or powers.
Distressing thoughts about harming yourself or your baby are also common, though very upsetting. It is very normal to feel embarrassment or shock at the things you did when unwell.
Talk through upsetting symptoms with your partner.
Ask to speak to a health professional (such as a support worker, specialist midwife, community psychiatric nurse, or another member of the your treatment team) about how you feel about your symptoms.
A psychologist or counsellor (particularly one with specialist knowledge of postnatal illness) may be able to help you talk through your experiences.
It’s normal to feel a whole range of emotions when you begin to recover from Postpartum Psychosis (PP). Below are some common emotions:
Worries and anxiety about bonding with your baby, your relationships, and your future health.
People recover from distressing experiences in different ways. Some need to talk about it, others may find that they’d like to face recovery in a different way, and you may find that you and your partner are dealing with the impact of PP in the same way, or in very different manners. This is where you and your partner must work together, be patient with each other, provide support and love, and don’t hesitate to ask the treatment team if what you’re experiencing is normal.
Here are some of the things you can do to cope with postpartum psychosis:
Be open about your thoughts, fears, and doubts. The postpartum period is always a rocky emotional and mental journey and a time of great mental adjustment.
Beat fear and shame. Most women who experience aggressive or irrational thoughts about themselves and their babies feel ashamed of talking about it. Sharing your thoughts with close ones helps them help you. Once you’ve experienced and received support, you will feel more confident in your recovery and gradually regain faith in your own judgment.
Be kind to yourself and understand that postpartum psychosis doesn’t define you. You’re no less of a mother because you have a mental illness. You didn’t choose to get sick, and you are equally valuable to your baby and your family regardless of your mental state.
Follow your care plan. Stay devoted to taking medication as prescribed and keeping up with appointments. At times, you might too tired or drowsy to stay on schedule. Make sure to have a backup plan to meet all of your appointments, including someone to drive you and someone to stay with the baby.
Focus on rest, recovery, and bonding with your child. Recovery from postpartum psychosis isn’t the time to worry about housework. Rely on friends and relatives to help as much as possible so that you can spend plenty of time resting and bonding with the baby.
Many women who have been through PP find that there are ups and downs in their mood over the first year of recovery, which can lead to feelings of a relapse or setback, if things have been otherwise going well. Having another bout of anxiety, depression, and other symptoms can make women feel as they’ll never recover. An episode of postpartum psychosis is sometimes followed by a period of depression, anxiety and low confidence.
It might take a while for you to come to terms with what happened. Some mothers have difficulty bonding with their baby after an episode of postpartum psychosis, or feel some sadness at missing out on time with their baby. With support from your partner, family, friends, and your mental health team, you can overcome these feelings.
Neither you or your partner can make this mental illness get better by toughing it out. It’s something that must be closely monitored and treated and watched and talked about. Try to have a discussion about PP at least every day.
Set small achievable goals. As you monitor your progress you’ll see that every setback doesn’t take you back to square one. It’s important for you to see how far you’ve come.
Keep a mood diary, which can help you track triggers for high and low moods. This is handy to bring to the treatment team, so they can best monitor and treat your mental illness Partners may want to keep a mood diary of their own. Getting to know yourself better allows you to notice any things you do which particularly affect the mood at home, for better or worse.
Make a a list of things that make you feel happy, and try them out when you’re feeling down and make a list of things that help you feel calmer and more relaxed, use them to try something from it if you’re feeling stressed or high.
What Are The Outcomes For Women Who Have Postpartum Psychosis?
The most severe symptoms of PP usually last from 2 to 12 weeks; it can take between six months and a year to recover – every woman is different in her recovery. Women often experience low self-esteem and difficulties as they recover, but most women fully recover. Many women who have PP have a hard time bonding with their child as they recover, but end up with healthy relationships with their babies.
Postpartum psychosis can disappear gradually in the months after labor, but can also linger for years. Women who choose to speak openly about the illness and seek help often find that antepartum psychiatrists and medication have a beneficial long-term impact.
About half of women who experience postpartum psychosis have further experiences of mental illness unrelated to childbirth; further pregnancies do not change that risk. Women hospitalized for a psychiatric illness shortly after giving birth have a 70 times greater risk of suicide in the first 12 months following delivery.
Should I Have Another Baby?
Making the decision to have another baby isn’t straightforward. Thinking about it might bring a lot of worries – will you and your partner go through the same painful experiences all over again? The more you can both share about your
hopes and fears, the easier it will be to make an informed decision together.
Many women who have had Postpartum Psychosis go on to have more children, and about 50% do not experience PP again after the birth of another baby. With the right care, if your partner does have another episode, you should be able to spot the signs, get help before it becomes too severe, and recover more quickly the second time around.
You can plan as many children as you want, even with history of postpartum psychosis. However, you will have to set up a support system and be prepared for the illness right after childbirth. Those with high risk from postpartum psychosis should have a support team monitoring their state during the pregnancy and after childbirth. If you’re expecting to experience postpartum psychosis after childbirth, specialist care during the pregnancy, as well as consultations with a psychiatrist are a good way to support mental health.
At around 32 weeks of pregnancy, everyone involved with your care, including family and friends, midwife, GP, and obstetrician, should meet to exchange information and agree on the postpartum care plans. In some maternity units, you may see a psychiatrist or mental health nurse before you leave hospital, even if you are well. This is to check that you are well at the time you go home. They should also check the plan made at your pre-birth planning meeting. They can make sure you have any medication you need and set up any support services as possible.
You should get a copy of your written care plan. This should include early warning symptoms and a plan for your care. There should also be details of how you and your family can get help quickly if you do become unwell.
The best solution for your postpartum care is to define the treatment course after the delivery. Some women have symptoms so severe that they need to be admitted to the psychiatric ward right after the childbirth. Others rely on the help of friends and family with housework and the baby. In some cases, mothers are under constant supervision from family members and never left alone with the baby. Though it might seem unsettling to know you can’t be alone with your child, this is the only way to ensure the safety of both of you. When someone is always present to help out with the baby, you are left with more time to recover and bond with the child.
You should discuss:
The risk of developing postpartum psychosis.
Risks and benefits of medication in pregnancy and after birth. This should give you the information you need to make decisions about your treatment.
The type of care you can expect in your local area from perinatal mental health and maternity services and how professionals work together with you and your family.
If you are at high risk of postpartum psychosis, you should have specialist care in pregnancy, If you are already under the care another mental health service they can work together
For Partners And Loved Ones: Coping With Postpartum Psychosis:
Do NOT hesitate to call emergency services if you’re concerned for your partner and your new baby.
Sitting next to – rather than in front – of your partner can help him or her feel more comfortable. This position also helps lessen feelings of confrontation if she is confused. Try to remain a friend and on their good side and talk to your partner, even it seems she’s not able to fully comprehend what you’re saying. Your voice is soothing.
Keep things as quiet and calm as possible, reduce any loud noises you can Things such as television programs may be too stimulating for him or her. Limit your partner’s mobile phone as possible, so he or she doesn’t have the embarrassment later of realizing they made frantic calls to distant friends or work colleagues during the period in which they were most ill.
This is a tricky thing to understand, but don’t try to reason with her; it’ll only make her more upset and confused – which is what you’re trying to avoid. Don’t take what she says or does too personally. What you’re hearing from him or her is the postpartum psychosis talking, not your partner, and isn’t what he or she really believes.
When her symptoms are severe, your partner will need help to look after the baby – she cannot be left alone with the baby. If she needs to go into hospital, the baby doesn’t typically accompany his or her parent Where your partner receives care will depend on
how ill she is, it may be helpful for family or friends to come and support you if they are able.
If your partner is admitted to the hospital, you can help her recovery by visiting regularly with the baby and giving her the opportunity to help with dressing, feeding, and changing the baby as well as plenty of time for cuddles.
Admission To The Hospital:
When your partner is admitted – voluntarily or not – you must find out as much about her treatment plan, while expecting it to change often. Ask questions like:
What kinds of health professionals will be in your partner’s treatment team?
How will they work with your partner?
What will they do for her?
It’s generally known that a psychiatric hospital can be scary, chaotic, and frightening environment for both mother and baby. It’s generally unlikely that a baby will be staying with your partner throughout her stay. Ask questions such as:
Can you bring the baby to see his or her mother?
What time are visiting hours and for how long? Is there somewhere to have some privacy when you visit?
If your partner is breastfeeding, do they have a hospital grade pump and/or the capacity to store formula for when the baby visits.
How do they plan to manage any postpartum physical issues (such as C-section care).
Will your partner have short leave periods when you could take the baby for a walk around the grounds?
Coping While Your Partner is Inpatient:
Your role for a few weeks is going to be balancing looking after yourself, your partner and bonding with your baby. It’s a difficult, stressful, and tiring time for you and your family. Don’t hesitate to ask for help as you can. Feeling alone, confused, stressed, frustrated or unsure of how to help is very normal at this point.
Before you share your partner’s illness, give yourself a bit of time to think about who needs to know what. Explaining what’s happening to family and friends is quite difficult. While we are making progress in destigmatizing mental illness, old habits die hard, and it can be hard for people to accept mental illness. Speak to your own and your partner’s families as close together in time as possible. Here’s what you should consider before you begin telling other people:
Who needs to know the whole story? Who only needs the highlights?
Does your partner want any visitors or phone calls yet?
Who can personally support you? What kind of support do you need?
What practical support can they give?
Watching the baby and/or other children
Who can and will help by cooking meals?
Informing other friends and family up to date
Someone to lean on emotionally
Recognize what your partner needs and encourage people not to call the hospital or your partner directly in the first few days.
Advocating For Your Partner:
There will be a lot of information understand all at once, and we all know that conversations with doctors and nurses can be jargon-heavy for anyone – especially if you have no medical training. Keep a notebook with you to record things like: important phone numbers; names of her treatment teams, numbers to reach each of them, dates of meetings, therapies being tried, spellings and dosages of medications; how your partner is doing, and what her symptoms are when you visit or phone; any advice you’ve been given; and questions you want to ask.
Don’t be afraid to ask doctors and nurses to take the time to explain things to you.
Caring For The Baby:
You must also look after your own health, and make sure you put your “oxygen mask” on first. You’re no good to anyone if you’re neglecting yourself. Remember that looking after your partner and family is a lotto cope with. It may be particularly difficult if your normal support system is your partner, as she can’t be there for you as she is ill.
You might find yourself feeling stressed, anxious, low, or unwell. Find a friend or family member you can talk to, then let them know how you’re feeling. Letting out your feelings can only help you – and is in no way related to how “strong” you feel you must be. This is scary – don’t kid yourself.
It isn’t selfish to think about yourself.
Caring for a baby might be new to you. Remember that the first few weeks after having a baby are hard for every parent, even without the additional worries and extra jobs that you have.
All new parents need help and advice in the early days, so don’t be afraid to ask the nurse, treatment team, and loved ones to help you with feeding, holding, bathing, sleep routines, and bonding with your baby.
Discharge From Hospital:
You’ve done it! You’ve both gotten to the other side and you’re stronger for it – but it can be a particularly daunting task. It’s OK for you both to feel totally nervous about this. Coming home is the beginning of a deeper recovery process, and recovery may take longer than anyone would like.
Before she comes home, though, work with your partner and her treatment team to establish an action plan if her symptoms worsen, who to call in an emergency, and when your partner should be readmitted, if necessary.
In the beginning you may note that your partner has probably lost confidence as a mother, so try to let her learn on her own. You don’t need to be the Baby Expert in the home (it will only serve to make her feel badly), let her learn what she needs and how to ask for help. Be honest, and reassure her that there’s really plenty of things that you don’t yet know how to do, either. Support her taking small steps with independent care for the baby, rather than letting her back out and letting you do it.
Make time to talk to each other – you are both getting over a big ordeal. Your patience may be low and things may be moving too slowly for your liking, but she needs to recover as much as you do. If she’s up to it, have fun together and enjoy some of the things you’ve missed. Prioritize spending time together – you are the best team to help each other and your baby. Some people suggest that you take lots of photos of yourselves and your baby, to help you and your partner remember this time and have some happy memories for you both to look back upon.
Ideally there will be a plan in place for community mental health services to continue supporting your partner at home.
Most areas have a huge number of privately run parent-infant groups, such as baby massage, singing and signing, baby yoga etc. Some parents find these groups helpful and others find it too daunting to attend alone when recovering. Most groups are also open to Dads and babies.
Raising a child is a lot of work! Don’t be afraid to ask friends and relatives to help out in practical ways. You could ask people who live locally to organize a meal rotation, or just to be available tot ext when you need some shopping or to get some laundry done.
Recovery From Postpartum Psychosis:
Once your partner has left hospital is when you really need support like fathers’ groups and frequent contact with her treatment plan. Postpartum psychosis can have a big impact on your life, but support is available. It might help to speak to others who’ve had the same condition, or connect with a charity.
You and your partner need to realize that all parents have good and bad days; tears, exhaustion, and anxiety aren’t always a bad thing. Just keep an eye on your partner and her behavior and don’t hesitate to call for help if it appears that there’s something more going on than normal parenting woes.
While your partner is unwell and in recovery, your relationship will probably be different than it has been. Many couples who’ve been through PP say that their relationship did change due to the illness. Some feel that their relationship
sufferer while others feel that their relationship strengthened as they shared the experience of going through PP as they learned to respect the resilience and determination their partners
showed in the sometimes-long recovery period.
There are a number of organizations that help couples work though their issues; these might be helpful a little further down the line. Talk to a mental health professional or find a local support group. Your experiences during your partner’s illness may leave you feeling shocked, frightened, or overwhelmed, and you may find that seeing a counselor to address your feelings helps you cope.
If you are concerned that your partner is making plans to commit suicide, get help urgently by calling emergency services or taking her directly to the hospital emergency department.It can be very distressing if your partner is having suicidal thoughts during recovery, but these can happen. There is no evidence that asking about suicidal thoughts will give someone an idea, so it’s wise to discuss this openly and honestly.
PP is a severe illness and recovery takes time. Women who have had PP say it can take 12 – 18 months or longer to feel ‘normal again’ and to fully regain their confidence.
It can take time to deal with the difficult emotions that have been part of your partner’s illness and recovery. Don’t rush her or yourself and make certain to be sensitive to her feelings; a lot of people who’ve had postpartum psychosis feel ashamed and embarrassed by the things they’ve done or said during their break from reality. In addition, she may have issues with separating what actually occurred during PP versus the delusions and hallucinations that she thought were real
Offering the right support to your partner while she monitors her own feelings and behaviors can be a bit tricky. It’s important that you’re both aware of the seriousness of what she’s been
through and are looking out for any signs that she’s becoming unwell. Try to be sensitive to the fact that your partner may feel watched or judged and fear that whatever she does might e seen as a symptom of illness.
You can help your partner, relative or friend by:
Be calm and supportive
Take the time to listen
Help with housework and cooking
Help with childcare and night-time feeds
letting them get as much sleep as possible
helping with shopping and household chores
keeping the home as calm and quiet as possible
Discourage too many visitors
Support for partners, relatives and friends
Postpartum psychosis can be distressing for partners, relatives and friends, too.
If your partner, relative or friend is going through an episode of postpartum psychosis or recovering, don’t be afraid to get help yourself.
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I know a lot of people don’t talk about postpartum depression. And a hell of a lot less talk about needing medication to treat PPD. But, hey, I’ve already told the internets that (at one point) my vag looked like Mickey Rourke and that I poop with my feet on a stool, so why stop the self-humiliation there?
When I had my daughter, my postpartum experience was a shitstorm I never wanted to repeat. Not only was I extremely depressed (baby blues, my ass!), but I also had a cancer scare, developed a thyroid problem, got two bacterial infections, and found out my mom has Parkinson’s Disease.
Needless to say, I went down and went down hard. I never really recovered.
Queue the after-effects of having a baby in an already-depressed person, throw in the obstacles thrown in my path, take away all things that resemble sleep, and add an infant who cried from 3 p.m. to 8 p.m. every day, and you had me: one hot mess of a mama. Let’s just say it was not pretty.
I lost friends, alienated the ones I loved, lost all sense of self-worth. The only thing I managed to do right was to be a good mom. But that’s ALL that I was. Outside of being a mom, I was a shadow of my former self.
I started therapy right before I got pregnant again. I didn’t want to start medication since we were planning another baby and the jury is still out on the effects of being on anti-depressants while pregnant. Therapy helped and things evened up a bit when I actually got pregnant, but I was never really there. I participated in my life, but didn’t have an active role in it. I didn’t realize it then, but I hadn’t experienced true happiness in years.
I decided to take control before The Crazy Train of postpartum depression even left the station. I started anti-depressants in the hospital right after I had my son and had a prescription filled for when I got home.
So far? Best. Decision. I. Have. Ever. Made.
Now that I am actually receiving effective treatment, I feel something I haven’t felt in a long time: happiness. I didn’t know how far out of control my depression had gotten until I actually did something to address it. Now, not only does the medication not sap me of all emotion, but it has actually helped me feel real emotion again. I actually feel like I AM someone again. I feel joy, sadness, relief, anxiety, love. I feel everything. I’m not just a passenger on the back of the bus of my life. I’m actually driving again and it feels fantastic.
Now, are medications an easier choice for me because I am a formula mama? Sure as hell are. Is there something you can do even if you are not? Yep – talk to someone: a friend, your doctor, your priest, your mom.
Hell, talk to me!
Having a baby is hard. Having a baby while struggling with depression feels impossible. It’s not your fault and you are no less of a mom for having it. Just get help. I did this time and I feel real again. I feel whole. I feel strong.